In any case, after helping Thor I seemingly died. Because if I had gone back to Asgard as myself, it would be back in prison for me. SO I essentially usurped Odin's throne by bespelling him, putting him in the home in New York City, and ruling as him for about 4 years or so.

[Loki wanted to finish that, to let Puck have all the context he could.]

I was...used to being hurt, as you guessed correctly. I was always different, and could never seem to measure up. Or be appreciated truly for what I could do.